Ok,
So..... I'm entering some silly stage of panic mode.... As fun as it is to have the prospect of various different guys... When the actual possibility of them becomes real... Turn on the freak out!
So... This Thursday is coming fast.... Will be seeing army officer from the course I went on.... And in some of the recent texts, there was definitely a flirty undertone..... I don't want to make anything of it, but am nervous nonetheless!
But now here's the clencher! Have heard from black tie dinner officer..... And he wants to go to the movies.... THIS THURSDAY! Arghhhhh..... Of all damn days! I've had to take A rain check and offered maybe Sunday, but he doesn't know what he's. doing Sunday so he couldn't confirm......
On the one hand... At least I'm not being too available for him, I mean, he let me down when I really liked him.... So I am kinda nervous, as I don't usually give second chances......
But top it off with the fact that I may like this other guy as well...... And there may be some mutual feelings.... Arghhh... I'm even more nervous than before!
On a side note, I am moving into a charged house in February, so everything is going to change in the next few weeks and this is a bit nerve wracking to say the least! Sigh....
I'm going to keep trying to play it cool..... But I don't know how cool I can be,
Plus.... I've been talking to a friend lately.... And we are on the path of being friends w benefits... So... Does this complicate matters?
What do I do.?
The next few weeks are going to be very interesting, without a doubt!
I'll try and keep you posted....
I'm starting to feed the flames of this fire..... And I am A bit scared I might get burned!
Lesson here folks..... Don't bite off more than you can chew!
Au revoir for now my friends... Hope you are all well... In this wintry cold spell everyone seems to be enjoying! 7 inches of snow here :).
Xxx
Sunday, 20 January 2013
Saturday, 12 January 2013
New year... old me?
Im back...
To start with... though i know not too many people follow this, i still would like to apologise for the prolonged silence on the stories... life seems to get in the way.... and before you know it, the mood is passed and that crazy thing that happened hurts too much to reminisce about..
November was my last post... and it was about an occurrence in october, a lot has happened since, and obviously, there is still a lot of past history to cover........ never a dull moment in this sorry little life of mine! (by choice of course... life is only as fun or as dull as you choose to make it)
so.. past or present? thats the question?
there have been many an entertaining night in the past 3 months.... sadly not one single of the men involved has managed to make a lasting impression, saying that though...... i currently find myself faced with the prospect of 4 possible interesting options (4 that could either go somewhere, or completely nowhere!)
so I will start with that... and if this doesnt take too long... then i will pick an old story to bring some laughs in...
so, back story number 1 (ties in to last post) Officer in the army... black tie dinner night... said he wasnt interested (honest at least)...
day before i flew home to my parents for christmas... i get a text from him... !!! 2 months no communication.. hey, hope you have a good christmas.. was it ... u were going to for xmas?
random...? purpose? unknown... but im polite.. replied thanks... have fun in france with the ski season (his original plan).. then i decided... new year.. why not... last wednesday i texted to wish a happy new year, assuming maybe he was back from france.. and he texted back on friday... specifying hes back in my town on sunday............... so i hinted that getting together would be fun... seems interested.... left at that for now... (that is option 1.... somewhere... nowhere,.. could go either way!)
Option 2: email from a guy on online dating site on 31st jan... pretty fit, muscly... ex army, now is a bodyguard.. seems nice enough.. is in iraq at present but is back in town in 2 weeks and might want to meet................. (never met before so could be full on dud.. only 1 inch taller than me! hrmmm.... could be something.. or nothing?)
Option 3: when i first started internet dating... went out once with a firefighter.... impromptu spontaneous night... i behaved, but we had fun drinking and playing games... he met someone so that never went anywhere... but sometime mid summer he added me on fb... (relationship status-gf) poked me on fb a few times... then we started emailing again.... hes since broken up with gf... and latest email hints at meeting up...... hrmmm....... (local so thats a plus... liked me once, could go well... has a girls name! not so keen!!! LOL im picky!)
Option 4.... my preferred choice... saving best for last...
met this guy on a course beginning of december... 5 years older than me... same profession as me, but also army officer... bit of a silver fox.. speaks various languages, funny... good at accents, intelligent, well travelled.... fits with me.... ---- problem : GIRLFRIEND hmmm... polish gf he met in salsa classes..... communication not working with them, so a girl can hope!!! well... that weekend we made good professional contact... so my thinking, play it safe, bide my time..... life is full of surprises! His idea was that one day i should come visit where he would to see what military rehab is like (did i mention, im a physical therapist) .... so we have been emailing, and in 2 weeks i am going to visit and see what its like compared to acute hospital settings..... but also.. i want to see what hes like... and hes letting me sleep in his room while he takes his friends room... hmmmmmmmmm... watch this space!!
so... likelihood? has gf.. so unlikely... but... i have a funny feeling... so who knows!!!
so... it would appear i have 4 possible prospects at present that could either all turn into nothing, or have potential for something...
hmmm.... needless to say... im tired of being alone.. i want to fall in love, want to meet my someone, want to start my life...ive lived plenty, but i feel its not as fun if i can't share it.
so.... the options are: 4: unattainable
3: repeat offence from a year ago
2: new and unknown territory
1: fun and exciting, but let me down once already..
HELP! lol... i like all 4....
and ill end up with none... guaranteed ;)
i dont feel like filling in with an old story now, as it would be hard to choose one, just to say.... everything happens for a reason, everyone we meet has a purpose...... the next 3 weeks will say what happens next..... ill be sure to update on the progress of the 4 projects...
in the meantime, i hope and pray that you all had an amazing christmas, and that this year has started strong... resolutions are cheesy, but i think its therapeutic to reminisce and self evaluate the things we can improve in ourselves...
my resolutions? going to sign up to crossfit (ready to physically die) and want to see 2014 in by kissing my soulmate..... gives me 12 months!
wish me luck fellow travellers..... life is a rollercoaster, made for adrenaline addicts of all sorts.. love gives adrenaline of the best kind and thats what i need....
ill be back...
xx
Still lonely, but hopeful
To start with... though i know not too many people follow this, i still would like to apologise for the prolonged silence on the stories... life seems to get in the way.... and before you know it, the mood is passed and that crazy thing that happened hurts too much to reminisce about..
November was my last post... and it was about an occurrence in october, a lot has happened since, and obviously, there is still a lot of past history to cover........ never a dull moment in this sorry little life of mine! (by choice of course... life is only as fun or as dull as you choose to make it)
so.. past or present? thats the question?
there have been many an entertaining night in the past 3 months.... sadly not one single of the men involved has managed to make a lasting impression, saying that though...... i currently find myself faced with the prospect of 4 possible interesting options (4 that could either go somewhere, or completely nowhere!)
so I will start with that... and if this doesnt take too long... then i will pick an old story to bring some laughs in...
so, back story number 1 (ties in to last post) Officer in the army... black tie dinner night... said he wasnt interested (honest at least)...
day before i flew home to my parents for christmas... i get a text from him... !!! 2 months no communication.. hey, hope you have a good christmas.. was it ... u were going to for xmas?
random...? purpose? unknown... but im polite.. replied thanks... have fun in france with the ski season (his original plan).. then i decided... new year.. why not... last wednesday i texted to wish a happy new year, assuming maybe he was back from france.. and he texted back on friday... specifying hes back in my town on sunday............... so i hinted that getting together would be fun... seems interested.... left at that for now... (that is option 1.... somewhere... nowhere,.. could go either way!)
Option 2: email from a guy on online dating site on 31st jan... pretty fit, muscly... ex army, now is a bodyguard.. seems nice enough.. is in iraq at present but is back in town in 2 weeks and might want to meet................. (never met before so could be full on dud.. only 1 inch taller than me! hrmmm.... could be something.. or nothing?)
Option 3: when i first started internet dating... went out once with a firefighter.... impromptu spontaneous night... i behaved, but we had fun drinking and playing games... he met someone so that never went anywhere... but sometime mid summer he added me on fb... (relationship status-gf) poked me on fb a few times... then we started emailing again.... hes since broken up with gf... and latest email hints at meeting up...... hrmmm....... (local so thats a plus... liked me once, could go well... has a girls name! not so keen!!! LOL im picky!)
Option 4.... my preferred choice... saving best for last...
met this guy on a course beginning of december... 5 years older than me... same profession as me, but also army officer... bit of a silver fox.. speaks various languages, funny... good at accents, intelligent, well travelled.... fits with me.... ---- problem : GIRLFRIEND hmmm... polish gf he met in salsa classes..... communication not working with them, so a girl can hope!!! well... that weekend we made good professional contact... so my thinking, play it safe, bide my time..... life is full of surprises! His idea was that one day i should come visit where he would to see what military rehab is like (did i mention, im a physical therapist) .... so we have been emailing, and in 2 weeks i am going to visit and see what its like compared to acute hospital settings..... but also.. i want to see what hes like... and hes letting me sleep in his room while he takes his friends room... hmmmmmmmmm... watch this space!!
so... likelihood? has gf.. so unlikely... but... i have a funny feeling... so who knows!!!
so... it would appear i have 4 possible prospects at present that could either all turn into nothing, or have potential for something...
hmmm.... needless to say... im tired of being alone.. i want to fall in love, want to meet my someone, want to start my life...ive lived plenty, but i feel its not as fun if i can't share it.
so.... the options are: 4: unattainable
3: repeat offence from a year ago
2: new and unknown territory
1: fun and exciting, but let me down once already..
HELP! lol... i like all 4....
and ill end up with none... guaranteed ;)
i dont feel like filling in with an old story now, as it would be hard to choose one, just to say.... everything happens for a reason, everyone we meet has a purpose...... the next 3 weeks will say what happens next..... ill be sure to update on the progress of the 4 projects...
in the meantime, i hope and pray that you all had an amazing christmas, and that this year has started strong... resolutions are cheesy, but i think its therapeutic to reminisce and self evaluate the things we can improve in ourselves...
my resolutions? going to sign up to crossfit (ready to physically die) and want to see 2014 in by kissing my soulmate..... gives me 12 months!
wish me luck fellow travellers..... life is a rollercoaster, made for adrenaline addicts of all sorts.. love gives adrenaline of the best kind and thats what i need....
ill be back...
xx
Still lonely, but hopeful
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